Love

Ryan's home!! He was only gone for 3 weeks but the time apart seems to get worse each time. Ryan called me around 3 in the morning on Friday saying the van broke down and they were 7 hours away. I was beyond bummed. I'm already very emotional and this birth control just makes that even worse. I was ready to drive all that way to go pick him and the rest of the band up. Thank the good, sweet Lord that the van started working and the boys were able to make it back home with no other problems. Ryan surprised me with a beautiful tattoo of my name on his arm. We had talked about getting husband and wife tattoos with each others name so now all I want is to get mine done. Sometimes insecurities about being married still come up. For example, I have this terrible fear that Ryan is just going to wake up and be over it and just leave; or that there's no way I could deserve something this good. It's these times when I have to tell myself to shut up and not let those lies get to me. I have never felt a love like this before and it just keeps getting better. He makes everything better. I'm so thankful for the relationship I have with him and the sweetness he brings to my life. I'm so happy he's home.